The Decision

        Everyone comes to the decision to adopt for their own reasons. Their back grounds are as varied as can be. Some people struggle with infertility for years before considering adoption. Others know from the very start that they want yo adopt. Still others come to the decision later after having their own kids or being moved by the cause. 
      My decision was sort of a culmination of things.  I have always said from a very early age that I wanted to adopt. However,  I didn't fully understand at that time what would come and what would be involved. 
      My husband and I got married in 2007. I was 30 and he was 38. Both of us hsd previously had failed marriages but neither of us had kids.  We said we wanted kids and started trying after 2 years of marriage.  It took us another 2 years to get pregnant.
       My pregnancy was a shock to my husband, who thought he couldn't have kids due to a kidney transplant.  I had a rough pregnancy with a few scares and major swelling issues. 3 weeks before I was due I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia and put on bed rest.
     My little boy was born 2 days early.  I had a hard labor and was in labor for 24 hours.   When he was finally born, he wasn't breathing. They rushed him to the NCIU. I was hemorrhaging.  Later, my doctors and I decided that it was not a good idea to have anymore pregnancies.
     At first, I was fine with having an only child. When he was two though, I started remembering the idea of adoption.  My husband and I talked about it for two more years before deciding to  pursue it.  Three months later, after a lot of research, we started the homestudy process and are on our way to adopt.